On the Edge of Sanity

Lately I have been allowing myself to destress and heal thru writing again…the other day when I was having an especially hard day to deal with I sat down and wrote this…

I love my family

but I live on the edge of sanity

Stress invades my every groove

Pushing harder and harder

Move! Move!

At almost every second my internal soul screams help,

yet I chose this path in life who can help me see it thru?

My love, my heart and soul, fails to get me at times so how can I hope…

I hope I can survive this,

yet I worry what will my kids think,

will they hate me for my moodiness and lack of consistency?

or will they understand the demon I fought,

my “jihad of the nafs”

Note:  Jihad literally is Arabic for struggle…it can refer to a physical struggle, but religiously it ultimately refers to the inner struggle of the soul(nafs) between good and evil.